I don't remember what happen Tuesday

This week, I looked around and thought where did it go? Somehow, the entire week passed by at the speed of light. Times like this make me feel like I am not doing much, not enough, because my brain was trained to perform and reach some unrealistic expectations in very short time frames, yet I have to remind myself sometimes to literally write a list of all the things I've done to actually take a look at how much I've completed, in small steps.

Someone pointed out to me that I constantly work. Yet I feel like I am being lazy 24/7. Paradox.

Let's leave it behind me

Even my The Risky Business Diaries didn't make the cut this week, that's how busy I was. With that being said, it is official, the Brain Day Off is coming back. If you don't know what that is, let me tell you. The day you select for yourself and just do all the things that you like/want. Usually, I just have a very slow day, I work out just to give my body some morning endorphins, get ready in no rush, have whatever I want for breakfast, and then it goes...I do whatever the hell I feel like.

Read a book, don't feel like reading? That's cool, let's swap the book, position I am in, or just drop it for now. Go on a walk, do journaling, water the plants, and go to the library to pick up 7 books I won't be able to read in a 3-week time slot. Whatever that is that feels silly or, my favourite, whatever feels unproductive – do it.

Though I do avoid rotting in bed/sofa or doom-scrolling my socials. But if that happens for a few hours, that's okay too. The day is also a judgment-free day. I am just being silly. Going to the museum if I feel like it, or just sit outside and people watch. Anything goes.

Even the obsessive phase of research, aka "what the F happened to the Glossier roll-up pimple stick that was released in 2018. That was a magnificent one.

But I digress, these brain days off are important for me and my brain precisely, because this week I already sensed my focus time dropping to its lowest and due to being a millennial, tech girlie in the past (and still a bit in the present, after all I am one-person team here for my business), and having "multitask" as a top quality on my CV, I have a span of attention of a 5-year old. Or as I like to call it, neurospicy.

Next week is also major bc I am starting Beta Testing for Hot Mama Bakery with my selected Founding Girlies. Because I know exactly how hard it is sometimes to get to the start line over and over again, I selected a group of friends and friends of friends to get on with actual beta testing.

For me, this is a huge step because I have been nurturing this idea for a year, so finally having the time and mental capacity to make it LIVE feels like something out of this world. Hence, why next week, I am locking myself inside to create. My never-ending ToDo list will be ecstatic for sure.

In addition, since this is my newsletter and my gibberish, I will cut it here. Because sometimes it feels like a drag, and I don't want to end up writing boring nonsense just like Carrie in that episode where she was comparing men to the socks in her drawer. Can't be me.

For my regular readers, I promise next week will be better and more interesting. In the meantime, shoutout to you for not falling asleep. Better get to watch this video where I actually go in-depth about a few things, despite the fact that I don't remember what happened Tuesday.

Okay, that’s all.

Love you, bye xo

Your neurospicy fashion stylist,

Aya x