Have I entered Identity Crisis?

Or is it just London latest heatwave melted my brain completely? 

They say redheads are fiery and blondes do have more fun. And then there is me. A dark brown hair girlie who has had her natural hair colour for 23 years, 10 years of being a fun blonde till six months ago I decided to switch to red (no, Becky, don't do the math). 

Red hair was supposed to be a fresh start, however, it seems everything in me dried out after I switched and, honestly, the dye would just not stick and wash off too quickly. I couldn't help but wonder...

Was red emotionally unavailable form of a fnck boy. Or was I emotionally unavailable to being a redghead just like I am with Crocs? 

It felt as some sort of witchcraft is pulling me back to become blonde again. The series of the week - The Vampire Diaries, since they have corrupted me for the old times sake, don't judge. 

So I layed there in bed on a Thursday night thinking what is is that I should do. For the record, yes, I take pride in my problems (I wish we all had these types of problems only) and indecisiveness. My brain was spiriling with pros and cons till I remembered what I have decided to live by earlier this year: 

If it's not a clear yes - it's a clear NO. 

The decision was made in less than a second... what can I say, being blondie is a calling, a state of mind, a shot made by the Turkish cutie patootie shooter - don't need extra fancy equipment, it's just a skill to be born with. 

Just like my favourite TikToker Drew Afualo who was born with a skill to bring horror reality check in a form of humour has released her very first book LOUD. Also available on Spotify Premium. Highly recommended. Caution! The book contains feminism, equal rights, and humorous crash of bigotry. She has changed lives of so many. 

Which got me thinking more about change. Change is good. Change implies that something better is coming, even if that doesn't feel like it at first. At first, it may be overwhelming and feeling like the world is ending. 

But we don't pay attention to the world endings anymore. I am sure one way or another, the world did end for a lot of us in so many different ways, yet, the next morning we woke up and kept on going. 

Song of the week - Hell N Back. 

Our initial response to change - we want to erase previous version of ourselves and create a new one. Which makes sense, because not going to lie, when those world endings come through, it does feel like a part of you dies. 

Usually we start with a haircut and most amazing outfit. Brand of the week - Salon Reading, to add some lightness to your day-to-day outfits. 

Again... makes sense. With new world comes new You. Elevated version of you. Even if that feels like just another level of Jumanji. The best part is that you don't have to be in this alone. Let's find you Personal Style DNA together. Let me be Zendaya to your Spider Man, Gaga to your Joaquin, Sydney to your Carmy, you get the gist. 

Seeing people glow from within feels like being a superhero. Even with my sense of humour. It's like I am a more stylish version of Deadpool (movie of the week). I can be a Deadpool to your Wolverine throughout multiverse. Okay, enough with the dorkiness, Aya. 

I digress. My point is any change is important. If Snoop could make his way from being a gangsta rapper, to creating lullabies, to being all we needed to see during the Olympics - You can do it too! Also, if you have watched the Olympic news at all, inspiration of the week wins no one else but Simone Biles.

Just adding another win to her pocket, there is also documentary about her on Netflix, for you to get inspired even more. 

Don't let identity or any, for that matter, crisis hold you back. Do whatever feels right, bring more colours and sassiness to your wardrobe. Set Your Savage Soul freeeeee! Your intuition already knows the answer. You just got to listen to it. 

This turned out a little bit of this, a little bit of that type of post.

That's all. 

Okay, love you, bye xo

Your slightly nonchalant fashion stylist, for now comes with a boiled brain. 

Aya x