105 days later

Wow, it's been a minute. Though I am back in one piece from my adventures and I definitely can confirm I did leave old version of me and all the fear behind. Technically I burned it all to the ground. Couldn't be happier and most importantly – FREE.

Freedom is an interesting feeling. One day you are living in fear and misery but with a somewhat stable income to cover your very basic needs (read rent + bills), the next day you are staring at Bank buildings in London from Golden Jubilee Bridge and your lungs are filled with fresh air even though you have zero savings and no security behind. But then there is a dream.

A dream that led me to this big ass decision. A dream of no labor.

Well, no hard labor. Because I certainly not only believe but experienced how my line of work is just making me creatively fulfilled. Someone said being a stylist is just like playing Barbie in a grown up world – and I can't unsee it now.

Since beginning of summer I dived in to more editorial work and it has been filled with fun, excitement, and simply joy, despite the fact that set hours are still long and I have to carry somewhat 17 to 20 outfits in my bag.

So here I am, left the job (again) that paid the bills, the one that, if I'm being honest, I got just out of fear of failing in my own dream. I have zero savings, zero security, zero financial supprt atm, but there is a pleasant yet strange feeling. In my core, I know I will succeed with all my current ideas (there 3, I will tell about all of hthem in my next newsletter). As if I know I won't fail, all I am working towards will come true and will bring me security, will bring my wildest dreams to life.

In matter of fact, there are a few existing news I'll be sharing will all soon.

Getting back to writing is always a great decision, as well as now, in addition, I have daily videos on my socials where I am sharing my daily updates on my forever long ToDo list, holding myself accounable, and simply being valnurable. The series called The Risky Business Diaries, available both on TikTok and Instagram. Select your fighter.

So to sum up (this letter will be short and sweet, bare with me, I haven't written much over the past few months), it's been two days since I finished my last day, and all I did was prioritise myself, much-needed sleep, surrounded myself with great people, activities, food, and overall my meaning of rest. I learned from my journey to have a space for rest first, in order for me to create anything and give it 150% of me.

With that being said, I am extremely eager to see how this journey will turn up through the process. Follow more closely journey on social media.

Oh I and I rebranded Fashion Scientist website, go check that one out x

Buckle up – it's couture chaos nd jokes from here.

Okay, that’s all.

Love you, bye xo

Your slightly chalant fashion stylist,

Aya x