My brain has 86574 tabs opening at the same time with music playing for all the tabs

What do you do when you go spiralling?

Surprisingly, that was the first time someone ever asked me that question. I thought to myself, and realised that either people get it or they are mediocre and neurotypical and saying “you are too much”. So naturally, I had to explain to the person what it means and, most importantly, how it feels in my brain. Because rebrand, aka upgrade my entire personality and business, is a lot. So let me take you on this journey. I promise, I still do styling and creative work. That is literally a part of it, but hear me out.

Remember that meme with having 87 tabs open and music is playing from somewhere, and you can’t figure out which tab it is?

Well, my experience of brain going in a spiral as a neurospicy gal, it basically has 86574 tabs opening at the same time with music playing for all the tabs, and my brain reacts to it as if all those tabs should be revisited, resewched, studied, and then moved to the next stage. Some are getting closed, though not too many. It feels a bit maniacal at times, which I would assume is exactly that, but let me tell you, this is where I am the most hilarious me. Because with all of those tabs, the funny comedian in me is awakening as well, because believe you me, you cannot survive that without good jokes. We will skip the fact that I will be joking from he jokes in my head, because yes, they are generated in my head, and before I can say those out loud, I start laughing. Okay, this does sound a bit insane, but hey, it is what it is. It can get worse only with a dash of insomnia. My sleep is somewhat alright during those spirals.

At the end of this all, I am coming out stronger, with new ideas, improvements of existing endeavours I am a part of, and a fucking clear vision.

2 weeks of spiral, 16 pages written in maniac state (front and back), and here we have a great example of my clear vision on where I want to move next year and years afterwards. Astrology says 2026 is a great year for me, as the fog that has been over my head since fucking 2011 is finally done and leaving me for good. Better be the motherfucking truth. So here is that.

I am also teaching myself privacy. Like a bit different from what I have now. One of the ultimate goals for all my projects is to be famous. If you cringed while reading this - ask yourself why. I truly believe I am that amazing, and the world needs to know. Simple as that. I have been trying to fit in different-sized boxes for too long. So I say no more, and it is time to face and go for whatever I want. I am pretty enough, creative and smart enough to do anything I put my mind to. Besides, I am delusional and, as you can tell by now, insane. In the most beautiful way, as my marketing friend put it after seeing all my written ideas. But I digress.

Teaching myself new levels of privacy to protect myself has been fun, don’t get me wrong, I will still yap my life away, but the things I keep now to myself make me so proud. Definitely been journaling more, since I cannot just keep it in me, but now it all goes on paper. Don’t get it twisted, I am still petty as fuck, and if someone is taking it there, I will take it further. Reminds me, I have a few people I need to make cry before the year ends.

With all that being said, as much as I love me statement pieces, I think my brain is the biggest statement piece I could have obtained in this lifetime of mine. But in case you need a bit more inspiration for fashion statement pieces, I have a FREE Statement Pieces Style Guide. You can easily get a copy here.

Smooth, I know.

My point of all this, however, is to inspire you to get a little feral when it comes to your new self, which I am sure is emerging this upcoming year. 2025 has been rough, and not in the way I would like rough, but very tough on all of us, so I do encourage you to begin your fucking journey, do whatever makes you feel alive. And then suddenly dreams start chasing you. Gotta love this little life, right?

Also, do we need a dating wrap from a person who doesn’t really date, somehow been dating a little this year? Nah…Unless.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed the last few minutes of my spiralling brain.

Oh, and before I forget:Author of the week: Fuck Being Humble by Stefanie Sword-Williams, you know, to get you in the right mood.

Small creative agency to keep your eye on and support: Wild Silk Global Creative Agency

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Hope that helps!

Okay, that’s all.

Love you, bye xo

Your neurospicy fashion stylist,

Aya x